Loving someone is torturing yourself to the point of being numb. Of wanting to be with that person so badly that you turn things off so that he can’t hurt you anymore. Wanting your life to be ok, as long as you’re with him. No matter the pain or hurt you put yourself through to keep him. I love him, need him even if he rejects me. I will have that small window of time that I’d spent with him. Letting myself actually feel something for a change. Coming out of my shell only to be shoved back in once he realizes I’m not what he wants. But I’ll shine for that little while. Bask in the glow of him temporarily. Then… BAM he hits me again. Slams me emotionally with his lack of care for certain aspects of me! What am I to do? It seems to repeat it’s self. Over and over. What can I do. I stay simply because I love him.
