Well my husband finally decided to call me 7 days after he left. He said that he was in an area with no internet or cell service. He also said that their phones would only call that particular city. I question that simply because after he left that particular place he goes to a small fishing village and is able to get to a phone that could call me. I don’t quite understand what happened.
When he called finally, I was calm. I didn’t have a fit. It shocked him. He thought that I was going to freak out on him. I thought it best to just let it blow over. Now things are a bit better. He’s gotten to where he calls me more often but still he has days where he finds it unnecessary to call me at all. That’s frustrating. I’ve only said something to him about it once.
I figure that if this relationship is going to work, the effort is going to have to come from his side. He’s the one who shows the least interest in the relationship working. So I sit and wait like usual. But I know me… I’ll get tired of waiting and I’ll find something more to occupy my time. I am doing my best to give him the benefit of the doubt but sometimes it’s hard.
I love him more than anything in this world. I’ve shown him that I think. He doesn’t doubt my love for him at all. Now him, he’s made me question things since I’ve gotten back here to the US. He did some things that I would, (at the time I was in Venezuela) never have expected him of doing. The things that he did were like slaps in the face. I was so shocked I didn’t know what to do.
He still says that he loves me no matter what. He says that things are still the same. But I can tell in his demeanor that things aren’t the same at all. The way he talks to me. The way he’s doing things. It’s all changed since this time last year or even a month ago.
I’ll sit and wait to see how things play out. There is nothing more that I can do really. I just hope that it works out the way I’m expecting it to. But everyone knows to never expect anything from a man. So I’m setting myself up for a fall. Sad thing is that I know that.
Well that’s the update so far. He’s calling again but his manor of speaking to me, his lack of calling and so many other things are changing. Wish me luck.
